Memory in Christmas

So long after my last post. It’s not that I don’t have anything to share with. But due to loads of work, time constrain, critical lappy and so forth have cancelled my intention in posting new post. Anyhow, I got my lappy back after burning some money in order to see it functions as I wish. Though it might not work as good as new gadget does, still my heart don’t want to let it go. It really, made up my study life…

New Year is just around the corner. And now surely Mr Santa Claus & Ms Santa Rina are busy preparing presents for this coming Christmas. Ho, ho, ho… I wish I could get too. :- ) (ada ker santa nk bg to this big girl. :p) In every festive season, everyone will be very happy celebrating. Neither Muslims nor Chinese celebrate Christmas and vice versa, still people enjoy the public holidays stated. Perhaps other agenda have been planned so that memory won’t just fade. And to our big family, this Christmas won’t be passed just like that. Special event will happen and new memory will be created…

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I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truely
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you, i'll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...

..Issues..

Vanessa:
Oooh, yeah,
Sometimes I feel like I'm going out of my mind,
Boy the way you do me is a damn crime,
But then you smile at me and it's alright,
With you there ain't any in between...

Every time that I walk out the door
I tell myself I can't take it no more
There's a part of me won't let you go
I keep saying yes when my minds' saying' no...

Chorus:
Me and my heart we got issues (issues)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you
Damn I wish that I could resist you
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you,
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues
We got issues, issues, issues.

Rochelle:
It's so hard; boy you leave me hangin' for so long
You empty out my love until it's all gone
You change the words but still it's the same song
I'm tired of the melody

Vanessa:
Change my number and throw out your clothes
But my feelings for you, it still show
I keep building a wall round my heart
But then I see you it all falls apart...

Chorus:
Me and my heart we got issues (issues)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you
Damn I wish that I could resist you (damn I wish)
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you, (can't decide)
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (Me and my heart)
We got issues, issues, issues.

Una (and Mollie):
Why fight it, (why fight it)
Can't hide it (can't hide it)
Truth is I think I like it
Confusion, illusions (confusion, illusions)
Still I don't know which way to go,

Vanessa:
Me and my heart we got issues
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you

The Saturdays:
Damn I wish that I could resist you
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you,
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (Me and my heart)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you (We got to work this thing out)
Damn I wish that I could resist you (I don't know)
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you, (can't decide if I )
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (issues)
We got issues, issues, issues.
We got issues, issues, issues (me and my heart)
We got issues, issues, issues
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (we got to which way to go)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you (I don't know)

* The Saturdays

Now i feel it..

The forth month of being a working person. Now, i feel it and experience it. Working and studying are two different things.Totally different!(baru sekarang, i can say so) before, hampeh aku nk faham. ~~sorry sir.. :p. After all, i'm happy in what i'm doing now. Let me compare the differences i've experienced.

Studying time
>> Normal/standard class time per day is 4-6 hours. Even worst is 8 hours, that is once in a blue moon (for 1st Year)
>>Everyone will smile when the lecturer cancels the class. Sometimes when it happened, we planned for movies or window shopping. Enjoy!!
>>In the morning, there is a 2-3 hours class and in the afternoon/evening we'll hang out till night.

Working time
>>Fixed hours of working is 8. When works have to be accomplished before customers get mad, need to work over the time lah!
>>There's no day which can be cancelled as class except the public holidays.
>>After back home, physically and mentally exhausted. And for sure, thinking of laying on the bed.

3 months of training have just passed. These 2 coming months are very crucial to me. It's b'coz i'm going to work all by myself without guidance anymore. The 'laoshi' is going to deliver her forth baby very soon and as everyone does, 2 months are the maternity period. Loads of works are waiting for me. Anyway, i'm going to enjoy this so-called chaotic situation and really hope to STAY +VE. Wish me luck then!!

that's how it goes

it's saturday n i got no big plan today. thought of hanging out with a friend but somehow she's busy with her new work. doesn't matter, we make it later ya sis!
so, heading to a beach was a great idea made. Beach of moonlight-that’s an English name which is formally known as “Pantai Cahaya Bulan’. Historically the beach has been called by many names. The oldest name appears to be Pantai Semut Api, the beach of the fire ants. Later, it was changed to Beach of Passionate Love (pantai cinta berahi). But then, it caused an offence to be called by that name and eventually changed to pantai cahaya bulan, the beach of a clear moon. Anyhow it was called, it was important to maintain the initials PCB since people often refer to place names by their initial letters. 


the beach scenery is beautiful. I always amazed with the God’s creation. everytime I come to beach, my favourite is to watch sunset. But then, it was impossible today. I hardly remembered when the last time I watched sunset was. What I remembered was, at the moment I was not alone as today. Kids were happily running on the sand, couple was enjoying playing kites and I excitedly swinging on a swing while talking on the phone.

That’s how it goes for today!

not a GIRL, not yet a WOMAN..

The number has changed. I’m no more 23 but 24 years old…I’m not a girl not yet a woman..:-) my birthday has just passed last 2 weeks. Watching transformers 2; revenge of the fallen, eating Kenny Rogers and enjoying window shopping. That’s what I did to celebrate my lucky day. Does it sound interesting? To add on-I got a very lovely birthday present. Love it so much! Thank u sir…
Adding to another age means have to add more spice to my new life. Being better than years before. Attitude must be more matured- that’s what dad n sir said. Huhu…plus-I’m not a student anymore, but a career girl. Am i? hmmm.. give me some times ya..

My Life Would Suck Without You

Guess this means you’re sorry
You’re standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you’d never come back
But here you are again

‘Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin’ to pick a fight
I know that I’ve got issues
But you’re pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I’m nothing without you

‘Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Being with you
Is so disfunctional
I really shouldn’t miss you
But I can’t let you go
Oh yeah

‘Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

‘Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

plan 4 the future..

it's the fifth month of 2009. another 1 and 11 days, my age will add on to another year. i'm not a girl not yet a woman..:-) finally, i've completed my studies. such a long journey and it really needs a huge physical and mental effort. there'll be no more staying up to complete assignment. there'll no more hanging out with friends after class and so forth.
after this, the update will be a bit slow and rare due to lack of internet access. indeed, i'll be busy with waiting tasks at home. the important part is, got to plan and strategize my future...

it's taxing..

the week was too taxing n today it comes to the limit... It pressures me a lot n tend to result negative thinking as well as acting which nearly conquered my mind. But then, it doesn t mean that i m giving up but somehow trying to heal myself... Monday - exam Tuesday-presentation Wednesday-presentation Thursday-2 presentation Friday-FYP What do u think of my schedule?

mess up

my life is in a real mess and i don't know what to do..

(~.~)

haven't sleep for 25 hours..

going back..

within few hours, i'll be heading back to my hometown..yihaa! it's almost 4 months which equals to a quarter year. wawawa..there'll be a feast so-called 'kenduri kahwin menyambut menantu'(this saturday to be exact) of my bro. anyway it's not easy to make such decision,since in the mean time i've an invitation for PGN dinner and submission of internship report as well. plus a small assignment for monday class. haiyooyoyo. really bad.thinking of enjoying the 'suasana kenduri', unluckily need to bring along my lappy and 'school work' as well.hope those lovely kids won't disturb their auntie. please dears...

it's 2nite!

the prom is tonight..

There's no more..

It’s been the sixth day I’m spending time at home. There’s no more being a working person so-called career woman. That’s it, three months have reached the end. Anyhow, I really miss the 3 months life. Woke up early in the Monday morning (before the azan) and driving back to my second home before went to office. My favourite was, turn on the CD player to the volume of 30. yezza!

Early morning of first April, I’ve been fooled by a friend. Gosh, it’s April fool....! The day passed through with spring cleaning time and having lunch with someone too. Ahah!

2nd april is my leisure day, add-on having lunch at the hotel. I’m full!!

3rd april, it’s time to start being serious - doing my industrial report which will be due next week. Ayoks!

Saturday, it’s time to hang out. Shopping for the prom nite! A lot of thanks to my best buddy for being a great company on the day. arigato gozaimas..

Sunday, what a day… really damn bored!

And today, back to school! After this, going out for my daily dinner and thinking of buying some petty things too…

2day

my life today..can be considered as not very good, which equals to bad. very early in the morning i've been awake by the sound of message alert tone. surprisingly and thought i was dreaming, the SMS was about death. my friend's dad has died. OMG, pity you. the voice i've heard was not normal as usual. not sure if you are pretending or not but i feel sorry for you. i wish i'd be there to comfort you. anyway, my condolences to you dear. the day starts with a heavy rain while driving to the workplace.both me and my partner quitely sitting in the car enjoying the traffic.plus enjoy listening to the hottest radio station in malaysia :-) quite late reaching the office and i was shivering due to the cold condition. at the office, there's no task to be completed. very damn boring-that's the feeling i felt. it's afternoon right now,and i'm just waiting for the afternoon break. cold weather plus cold air-cond makes me feel very hungry (cold weather + cold air-cond=hungry)can i make this type of formula?? haha...

the prom nite~

Within a month, I will attend a dinner with the masquerade party theme (senior prom night 2009).wow, it sounds great but till now I still thinking of the attire which require me to wear a mask. OMG…:-) I would appreciate who could give me any idea or suggestion about it…lalalala…. one more thing is that, who’s going to be my partner?? Hurm, anyone??? (raise up your hand please…haha) friends of mine are talking about the dress, partners and everything for the night. And me, can still keep ‘cool’ though I only have another 4 weekends to look for anything for that night … that night will be the last night for us, the ‘seniorita’ of language studies academy to be officially together. And that’s it, after all we are going to take our ten toes out from the environment of ‘bachelor student’…it’s too early to say goodbye to my dear friends anyhow whatever happens the three years moment with you guys will be eternally in the memory of mine..if tomorrow never comes, just to let you guys know that I won’t forget to say ‘thank you for everything’..

cairex 2009

at the moment i type this blog,i was in a cairex expo which require me to attend a sitting n listening program. 1st thought in my mind,it would be a boring day. Anyhow, i did get to learn something new. My intention is that i want to share with you,the readers. A talk 'from zero to a millionnaire' by mr ernie chen the ceo of atcen international group was really great. He suggests to start a business for the 1st year.in the mean time put a business system in place. Then for the 2nd year,we should grow the business. Duplicating and franchaising are the key points there. Lastly,the 3rd year comes. This is when we should invest the profit gain through property,mutual fund, stock and fixed deposit.anyway,that s all for today.hav a gud day dearie friends!

still CNY mood..

it's Monday..i'm here, back to write.. anyway, it's still in Chinese New Year mood. there are CNY parties here and there. Last Saturday, there was a CNY party held by CIMB Berhad and they were celebrating OKU community. On that day before rushing back to Shah Alam, i ate Fortune Cookies which are world's most popular titbits (as stated on the plastic..:-)) The sentence typed on a piece of paper sounds "Faith will move mountains". It amazed me and yea, it sounds good..haha.. And guys, have you ever eaten fortune cookies? How's that sound and what do you think of it??