back to hometown-

It’s good to be at my hometown again..:-) such a wonderful feeling.. after 4 months ++ striving as a student, now I’m home as a daughter to both of my parents.. and as usual, they are waiting for their princess to come back, though that’s means lots of job is waiting.. (“,) exactly arrived on Mother’s Day.. sangat gumbira kerana kepulangan ku disambut oleh ibu tercinta. Rasa penat memandu dari shah alam hilang sekelip mata bila dapat kukucup pipi dan memeluk bonda yang tersayang. Dapat dilihat wajah riang dan kesyukuran kerana kutiba dengan selamatnya. Alhamdulillah, ku masih punya insan yang melahirkanku.. wanted so badly to scream out; lihatlah dunia, my beloved umi!! Ahah, I’m lucky, right??
Two days at home.. not much to say b’coz I’m not planning anything yet. Sometimes, mind will fly over to orchid town .. thinking and missing ………. there. :-)

Enniey Effendy

Juz finished..:-)

Juz finished da last paper, yesterday… Such a relief 4 me… to conclude, yesterday was the worst paper I took and frankly speaking, extremely scared to know the result soon..huh..!
However, let bygone be bygone. No point to think of it again. Looking forward is much more important. And now, got to focus on 3 submissions which will be due on 28th, 29th and 10th. That’s what life all about. Everything has the deadline as well as expiry date. Multimedia project (includes webpage) and the thesis. Hurm, idea n creativity need to be combined. Well, I’m not that kind of person actually. Creative sounds hard to me. But then, I don’t want to make excuses and block my goal. Many people said excuses make you fail. Absolutely! Every problem has a solution. It is us who will determine whether to take it or leave it. Take that challenge and you will know how it tastes. Hahaha, I’m giving myself ‘kata-kata semangat’..
By the way, spirit goes down after all my beloved things gone including my 2 pendrives. My work inside there! I need to start it back from the starting point. Fuuhhh.. tones of work to do. what else should I say, except……. be STRONG with this..

Enniey Effendy

oUt fRoM uNdEr-

Breath you out

Breath you in

You keep coming back to tell me

you’re the one who could have been

and my eyes see it all so clear

It was long ago and far away but it never disappears

I try to put it in the past

Hold on to myself and don’t look back

I don’t wanna dream about

All the things that never were

Maybe I can live without

When I’m out from under

I don’t wanna feel the pain

What good would it do me now

I’ll get it all figured out

When I’m out from under

So let me go

Just let me fly away

Let me feel the space between us growing deeper

And much darker every day

Watch me now and I’ll be someone new

My heart will be unbroken

It will open up for everyone but you

Even when I cross the line

It's like a lie I’ve told a thousand times

And part of me still believes

When you say you’re gonna stick around

And part of me still believes

We can find a way to work it out

But I know that we tried everything we could try

So let's just say goodbye

Forever

avoid stereotyping..

It’s 1.59 am…it’s Thursday morning…very early, too early…and it’s not dawn yet… hurm, and me right now is sitting in front of this gadget typing…do not have a feeling of sleepy yet. In fact, I got a can of Nescafe next to me; a way to make me feel awake and continue working. To add on, I’m just coming back from watching a mid night movie, ‘27 dresses’… interesting and entertaining… makes me smiling and dreaming… dreaming of a Mr Nice guy… ahah! Well, that’s just a briefing…

Anyway, at this time I’m thinking of analyzing people’s thinking. Confusing sentence? Huh, never mind… Before I get the knowledge (formal education), I’m maybe not too good or else shall I say do not too rational in encoding people messages… but, time is moving and perception is also changing. I learn to look at the situation from different view. Learn to think in different angle. By the way,it's not a matter of being expert in this field. Here, what I want to stress is, don’t be typical and stereotyped people especially when you are well-educated. You learnt all such things about stereotyping, generalizing… but, you still put your mind in that level. Such a worthless! Don’t train yourself to think negatively. I’m not saying that you can’t think negative at all. But, just limit yourself from thinking negatively all the time. You may do so, but not too often… people around will judge you as a negative thinker… One more thing, don’t pretend like you’re an angel. You are the only one who always right and others are wrong. Hello, please respect others too!! Even though you do not like other’s opinion, but please show some respect. This is what life all about. You get the idea (knowledge), and you need to practice it. Do not conquer everything. You know what, whether you realize it or not, others really hate such type of people. So do i.

A matter of life......++

A route to a better life… I’m searching for perfection. I’m looking forward on having a meaningful and happy life; meaningful in terms of having a soulmate who can appreciate my existence instead of sharing my feeling, meaningful in terms of having a happy family either steady or future family. By the way, it’s not a matter of materialistic but for the sake of better future life. Nowadays, nothing is free in this world (My finance lecturer taught me this phrase). Everything is charged for usage. It’s a MUST to pay to get food. In fact, the digested food in our body should also be paid for the usage of a toilet. Am I right? Does it make sense?
Time keeps moving, people keep on developing, technology keeps on growing, and even toilet fee keeps on increasing. From the rate of 20 cent and now it almost reaches RM1!
Anyhow, that’s only referred to a simple perspective. If multiple perspectives are considered, there are tones of dimensions should be concerned. Car, Condo (house), Cash, Cell phone as well as Career have become a NEED in life. That 5 C’s are no more to stay as a want. Again, does this make sense? Whatever, I really mean it!

……To be continued

a new day has come..

18 February; the day has come again… the number has changed…the situation is varied… the condition is not as the same as before…but then, is the feeling still the same? Many things happened, many occasions occurred, is the relation still exist? I do not have the answer… do not ask me those questions, but please do ask the responsible person….

I’m still the same person as you’ve known earlier… I’ve maybe changed… but, changing in life is a must… change to be a better person… change to be a matured person… change to be a knowledgeable person… change to be an experienced person… these are a must… but, I’m not changing my feeling yet…should I or shouldn’t I ?

When mind is kept thinking, when head is still spinning, when heart is still searching…I need a confirmation…

It’s been thousands of hours…are you still in confusion? If the condition (which I’ve made) became the block, then please ignore it. I’m still holding the religious faith… still know to differentiate which one should and shouldn’t be followed… don’t you believe me?

If… you’ve made the decision, and the answer brings me tears, then I accept it… nothing can change your mind right? If… the answer brings me smiles, then I do accept it too… the decision is yours… because the destiny is fated!