Memory in Christmas

So long after my last post. It’s not that I don’t have anything to share with. But due to loads of work, time constrain, critical lappy and so forth have cancelled my intention in posting new post. Anyhow, I got my lappy back after burning some money in order to see it functions as I wish. Though it might not work as good as new gadget does, still my heart don’t want to let it go. It really, made up my study life…

New Year is just around the corner. And now surely Mr Santa Claus & Ms Santa Rina are busy preparing presents for this coming Christmas. Ho, ho, ho… I wish I could get too. :- ) (ada ker santa nk bg to this big girl. :p) In every festive season, everyone will be very happy celebrating. Neither Muslims nor Chinese celebrate Christmas and vice versa, still people enjoy the public holidays stated. Perhaps other agenda have been planned so that memory won’t just fade. And to our big family, this Christmas won’t be passed just like that. Special event will happen and new memory will be created…

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I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truely
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you, i'll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...

..Issues..

Vanessa:
Oooh, yeah,
Sometimes I feel like I'm going out of my mind,
Boy the way you do me is a damn crime,
But then you smile at me and it's alright,
With you there ain't any in between...

Every time that I walk out the door
I tell myself I can't take it no more
There's a part of me won't let you go
I keep saying yes when my minds' saying' no...

Chorus:
Me and my heart we got issues (issues)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you
Damn I wish that I could resist you
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you,
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues
We got issues, issues, issues.

Rochelle:
It's so hard; boy you leave me hangin' for so long
You empty out my love until it's all gone
You change the words but still it's the same song
I'm tired of the melody

Vanessa:
Change my number and throw out your clothes
But my feelings for you, it still show
I keep building a wall round my heart
But then I see you it all falls apart...

Chorus:
Me and my heart we got issues (issues)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you
Damn I wish that I could resist you (damn I wish)
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you, (can't decide)
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (Me and my heart)
We got issues, issues, issues.

Una (and Mollie):
Why fight it, (why fight it)
Can't hide it (can't hide it)
Truth is I think I like it
Confusion, illusions (confusion, illusions)
Still I don't know which way to go,

Vanessa:
Me and my heart we got issues
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you

The Saturdays:
Damn I wish that I could resist you
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you,
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (Me and my heart)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you (We got to work this thing out)
Damn I wish that I could resist you (I don't know)
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you, (can't decide if I )
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (issues)
We got issues, issues, issues.
We got issues, issues, issues (me and my heart)
We got issues, issues, issues
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (we got to which way to go)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you (I don't know)

* The Saturdays

Now i feel it..

The forth month of being a working person. Now, i feel it and experience it. Working and studying are two different things.Totally different!(baru sekarang, i can say so) before, hampeh aku nk faham. ~~sorry sir.. :p. After all, i'm happy in what i'm doing now. Let me compare the differences i've experienced.

Studying time
>> Normal/standard class time per day is 4-6 hours. Even worst is 8 hours, that is once in a blue moon (for 1st Year)
>>Everyone will smile when the lecturer cancels the class. Sometimes when it happened, we planned for movies or window shopping. Enjoy!!
>>In the morning, there is a 2-3 hours class and in the afternoon/evening we'll hang out till night.

Working time
>>Fixed hours of working is 8. When works have to be accomplished before customers get mad, need to work over the time lah!
>>There's no day which can be cancelled as class except the public holidays.
>>After back home, physically and mentally exhausted. And for sure, thinking of laying on the bed.

3 months of training have just passed. These 2 coming months are very crucial to me. It's b'coz i'm going to work all by myself without guidance anymore. The 'laoshi' is going to deliver her forth baby very soon and as everyone does, 2 months are the maternity period. Loads of works are waiting for me. Anyway, i'm going to enjoy this so-called chaotic situation and really hope to STAY +VE. Wish me luck then!!

that's how it goes

it's saturday n i got no big plan today. thought of hanging out with a friend but somehow she's busy with her new work. doesn't matter, we make it later ya sis!
so, heading to a beach was a great idea made. Beach of moonlight-that’s an English name which is formally known as “Pantai Cahaya Bulan’. Historically the beach has been called by many names. The oldest name appears to be Pantai Semut Api, the beach of the fire ants. Later, it was changed to Beach of Passionate Love (pantai cinta berahi). But then, it caused an offence to be called by that name and eventually changed to pantai cahaya bulan, the beach of a clear moon. Anyhow it was called, it was important to maintain the initials PCB since people often refer to place names by their initial letters. 


the beach scenery is beautiful. I always amazed with the God’s creation. everytime I come to beach, my favourite is to watch sunset. But then, it was impossible today. I hardly remembered when the last time I watched sunset was. What I remembered was, at the moment I was not alone as today. Kids were happily running on the sand, couple was enjoying playing kites and I excitedly swinging on a swing while talking on the phone.

That’s how it goes for today!

not a GIRL, not yet a WOMAN..

The number has changed. I’m no more 23 but 24 years old…I’m not a girl not yet a woman..:-) my birthday has just passed last 2 weeks. Watching transformers 2; revenge of the fallen, eating Kenny Rogers and enjoying window shopping. That’s what I did to celebrate my lucky day. Does it sound interesting? To add on-I got a very lovely birthday present. Love it so much! Thank u sir…
Adding to another age means have to add more spice to my new life. Being better than years before. Attitude must be more matured- that’s what dad n sir said. Huhu…plus-I’m not a student anymore, but a career girl. Am i? hmmm.. give me some times ya..